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The Proclaimers Book in chapter 7 discusses the fact that in 1919 the brothers were imprisoned and received discipline from Jehovah. This was a serious and grave blow to those Christian Witnesses, and their preaching work nearly came to a standstill. Some felt that they as God’s people were being disciplined. Jehovah’s Witnesses today, nearly 100 years past the date of 1914, must face the fact that again, like way back then, there are some disturbing problems with the teachings and the leadership of the Watchtower Organization.
My goal is to shine a light on this, and gain more knowledge and wisdom. (Proverbs 4:5-9) “What Heavenly Father do you want me to do? Lead me in knowing your will and make me receptive to the Holy Spirit.” is a daily prayer for me. Coping with the things myself and many thousands of other sincere brothers and sisters have learned through deep research and study is not easy. I receive an almost daily stream of messages and emails from ones that are suffering at the hands of the harsh policies and struggles with their own Christian conscience.
All of those that are “Awake Witnesses” (as opposed to those that are asleep to the problems with the Watchtower leadership) risk the loss of friends and family. We experience stress, fear, and pain as some of our most cherished beliefs have been exposed as inaccurate. So what do we do? Please be assured that the goal of the site is NOT to say “Leave the Truth! The elders in my Hall are cruel and the friends gossip and I have been wronged- the Kingdom Hall cannot be a Christian place!” Some places on the internet are like that. This place is not. We serve Jehovah/YHWH and his anointed Son Christ Jesus because we love them- we don’t do what we do just to please men or to put up a false front for appearances within the community.
But can someone be an active Witness of Jehovah and still investigate the chronology of 607 BCE and 1914 CE? What about the true facts on the blood issue, disfellowshipping, numerous failed predictions, the faithful and discreet slave class, and others? Deep in my heart I know that something needs to be done and some things need to change, and that yes I can be pleasing to Jehovah despite my past involvement in teaching and enforcing the policies and beliefs of the Watchtower Society leadership.
How could change occur? Will it happen by accident or by the power of God’s Holy Spirit? Or will there someday be a “critical mass” of ones like us that make it happen? No one but the Son and the Father knows those answers. So let’s meet together here and talk, as fellow Christians. All are welcome to read and comment on the scriptural discussions. Please enjoy the site, and don’t stop studying and praying no matter what. By all means, “wait on Jehovah”- but in the meantime, don’t let 30 years go by and then wonder if you should have done something. Get involved- tell us your story if you can. Join the dialogue- for knowledge and wisdom come to those who actively seek to understand the deep things of God.
With Christian Love,
Eric, aka “JJ”
I used to go by JJ, as I had to remain anonymous for the first two years authoring this website. I was baptized almost 30 years ago, and was raised “in the truth”. I had many assignments over the years- regular pioneer, full-time Bethel service at Brooklyn, circuit and district talks as a servant and elder for about 20 of those years.
Due to reasons of conscience I stepped down and have discontinued meeting attendance and the formal door-to-door field ministry. I did this not because I hated these activities- quite the opposite! Going in service, giving public talks and other parts had been an enjoyable and honored pursuit of mine for many years. But how could I go out and tell others something that I deep down in my heart feel is in error? Things such as Jesus invisibly “coming” in 1914 to take Kingdom power, or that Jesus is not actually our mediator cannot be correct in my view, nor supported by Scripture. I cannot teach or advocate something that I have come to believe through many hours of deep study and prayer is wrong. Virtual worship of a Governing Body of eight imperfect men also bothers me greatly. Notice what Mankind’s Search for God says about Martin Luther:
When pressed once again to recant [and stop disobeying the Catholic Church], Luther made his famous statement: “Unless I am convicted by Scripture and plain reason . . . , I cannot and I will not recant anything, for to go against conscience is neither right nor safe. God help me. Amen.” (Mankind’s Search for God, pages 316-317 par. 23. Bracketed words added for clarity.)
I live in the Central Coast of California, and am recently divorced, as my ex-wife (who is still an asleep Witness) initiated legal proceedings against me as a result of me fading from active participation as a Jehovah’s Witness. She told me that I was “poisoning her children” by sharing with them my Bible-based convictions that Jesus is the only way truth and life, not any man. My two children mean the world to me, and they are worth any sacrifice I could ever make, so while this has been a difficult thing to go through, it is not unexpected as Jesus said that a man’s enemies would be person’s in his own household.
So why am I writing this blog? What possible reason could I have? “Is this guy a hypocrite?” A faker? An evil apostate? All of these are legitimate questions that you as a visitor to this website could ask. I was compelled to anonymity for obvious reasons for the first two years of being an Awake Witness, or a member of the “Conscious Class” as it has been called. Any Witness speaking contrary to “mother”, aka the Watchtower Society is automatically branded an apostate and subject to serious discipline and possible disfellowshipping. Since my ex-wife turned me in to the elders and they investigated me, I decided to let my light shine and speak nothing but truth to them, and a few other close friends. They have all shunned me now, and that is their conscience, their choice. I still have love and affection for them as brothers.
There is an interesting website at: www.jwreform.org that bears looking at. Obviously the brother or sister that authored the site is a sincere Christian and one of Jehovah’s Witnesses. They are quite knowledgeable about Watchtower policy and procedures, and God’s Word. They seek to change the Organization from within. Is that even possible? I have prayed about this many many times, and honestly don’t know if it could ever happen. Maybe if enough of us “stones cry out” who knows? Psalms 127:1 says “Unless Jehovah himself builds the house, it is to no avail that it’s builders worked hard on it.”
I will always love the truth and Jehovah God and his Son Christ Jesus- that will never change. I still read the New World Translation of the Holy Scriptures, along with many other Bible translations, as I have for decades. I love the friends in my former congregation and don’t want to discourage or tear them down, or get them to stop serving Jehovah. But I feel like I have to speak, and share what I have learned! Perhaps we can all figure some things out in the process. I don’t know it all- in fact I know so much less now than I did when I began this journey. “Such is life” as they say. I do know that God loves us, and that he does not love me or you any less than another!
THE PURPOSE OF THE SITE
Why is a formerly very active, “strong in the truth” Witness daring to post questions and comments about things that aren’t 100% in agreement with what is found in the Organization’s literature?
I guess it’s therapeutic, that’s honestly one big reason. But another is that maybe there are others out there like me/us that love the friends, love Jehovah and Jesus and don’t feel comfortable in “Christendom”. Maybe those of us that dare to ask these questions are compelled by our conscience to DO or say something, no matter how small the gesture is. I came across an interesting post the other day where the Q was asked: “Am I one of Jehovah’s Witnesses?” He listed things like:
• I don’t believe in the holidays or in joining the military
• Or the trinity or hellfire and I share the good news with people
• I gather together and I believe that entire Bible is God’s Word
Then he finished by asking that question. Some commented that no, he had to subscribe to and believe in everything the Watchtower Society said and if he didn’t then he wasn’t one of Jehovah’s Witnesses. But what about Isaiah 40:13 that says “you are my Witnesses”? That was written a very long time ago by Jehovah’s prophet under direct inspiration. Can we be one of Jehovah’s Witnesses and not believe every single thing that appears in a Magazine, letter, Kingdom Ministry, or book published by the Watchtower Bible and Tract Society?
My purpose in publishing this blog is to figure that out. I don’t have all the answers- but our journey on the cramped road won’t end until our natural lives or this system comes to an end. Recently I’ve figured out some major things- and seen a lot of stuff happen in the organization that have compelled me to ask this difficult question. I want to share what I’ve learned with other ones of you that are out there and may feel as I do…and get your advice and counsel too- I need it! I also hope that we can study and appreciate God’s Word here unencumbered and without fear of backlash if our views are divergent. We can agree on a lot of things, maybe even most things. And in the process build up our faith and Christian maturity.