I would like to discuss briefly in this post just what the JWStruggle.com website that you are reading right now is all about. But first a short recap: In my previous article entitled “Apostate Trial Part 1” I wrote about the news that the local Elders are after me, despite the fact that I have not attended meetings in over a year and have no leavening influence on their local flock, as the friends that attend in my area already snub or shun me when they see me around town. The elders will be “spiritually stoning” me in a few days at their judicial tribunal (1 Corinthians 4:3-6, HCSB) and I am preparing for it now, even as I write this article.
Our faithful and dedicated sister LonelySheep has gotten me to think seriously about what this site is about lately, and I want to personally and publicly thank her for her comment in that past article regarding my reference to another blog site from a brother that was wrongly disfellowshipped by the Watchtower Organization. This has stimulated my thinking to use it as a springboard to discuss it in more detail. I had made a comment below that previous article about Brother Rory, who himself was a faithful Jehovah’s Witness elder for a number of years, and then was deleted and later disfellowshipped for so-called apostate thinking. His site presents his principled thoughts and musings on Jesus and religion and philosophy and is quite different from this one in some ways. That is his blog, and he has the right to say whatever he wishes and that is part of freedom of religion and freedom of belief and he did the hard work and had the courage of his convictions to research and write these articles and put his viewpoints into the public forum of information online.
The comment said in part,
But what is the the link to Rory’s site ‘a carpenter from Nazareth’ all about? …Rory has his beliefs and good luck to him.
I do not endorse or agree with every single thing Brother Rory teaches/believes. I personally do feel he is a man of principle and of obvious intelligence. The specific article I mentioned that I liked is “Surrendering to the WT Fade” and was quite a well done article in my opinion, and I could not find any divergence from Bible teachings in it. Would I have worded things slightly differently if I had written it? Yes…and so would any of us, as we are all individuals with varying consciences. I still feel the essay had a very positive and thought-provoking message that would benefit those of us here. That is my opinion and I would hope that the brothers and sisters that come here to JWS would respect it, as I do yours.
Later in the comment it was said:
I thought this site was about getting in touch with God and his Son, not about denying the fundamental tenets of the Christian faith.
What this site is about is a very good question. The purpose of this site, and the direction of this blog is what this brief article is about so now we get to the meat of the point:
Two years ago (which by the way is a birthday for JWS this month- Hooray, happy two years, and only by the grace of God!) when it was started in September of 2010, I did not have a clear idea of what I hoped to accomplish. I started the site for my own mental and spiritual health. I made it solely so that I could sort out all my conflicting feelings and the horrible feelings of cognitive dissonance I was experiencing. The site has never been commercially advertised it, and I never even told a soul about it except my close friend Greybeard who helped me immensely in the early days to get the site off the ground and running. I bought an internet domain name. I researched what web hosting company to use, what software would be best to build and maintain the site, etc. Spending literally thousands of hours building the blog and writing articles, moderating behind the scenes and putting out technical fires has been a large commitment, but one that I have embraced as a Christian privilege and outreach for struggling Jehovah’s Witnesses.
I truly feel that Our Lord has guided me in this endeavor and I have felt the Holy Spirit at times leading me to keep the site going, even in times when I felt I couldn’t do it any longer. The welcome message along the upper right side of the home page tells what the purpose of this site is. Many asleep Witnesses that stumble across www.JWStruggle.com are put off or bothered by it and reject it right away as “just another apostate site” and quickly click it away. This is reflected in the analytic that quantifies and measures “bounce rates” and it usually hovers in the 40% range. Yet despite that, over 250,000 hits (over a quarter of a million page views!) have been registered since the site was started.
So some may not agree with me referencing a blog site that diverges from the traditional view of who Jesus is, and you can agree or disagree with me, and that is just fine. I am not above receiving counsel from any person, male or female, believer or non-believer. I thank every single person that has given me criticism or counsel about the blog, which over the last two years has been many individuals, trust me! A person’s opinion of what they feel the site is for them is valid and could not be called “wrong”, as it is just that, their principled opinion.
A year or so ago there was some excellent brothers that contributed greatly to discussion here on the front pages, as well as behind the scenes in the forum that is open to anyone to contribute posts or articles on any Bible related topics that one wishes to talk about. After a time they decided to leave and start another site, and no longer frequent this one. I miss them, but honestly, I thought it was great! This is what Christian Freedom is all about- being able to believe and worship the Father and the Son as our conscience moves us to, and praise him through whatever avenue we have at our disposal. I have said in past articles that I wish every single one of us could start a blog and express our vision for what we would like to read and talk about “for the building up of the body of Christ”. So what are you personally waiting for? Go to WordPress.org and start your new website today- you can do it in only about 5 minutes and it is not rocket science.
Currently the JWStruggle site is focused on what concerns me and many other awakened Witnesses greatly; that is, being ferreted out and burned at the stake for so-called heresy. It is happening to me right now, and once again, as I did two years ago I will use the site as therapy and as part of my devotion and worship; it is a way for me to preach and to let my light shine before men! This is an outreach to others among the dissident JW community that are hurting and praying and yearning for change or reformation within the WT Organization. It will come or it will never come- only God knows, and we can show a waiting attitude on his Will, and then we can get out there and do something about it. (Micah 7:7) In the meantime I will continue to fight for what I believe is right and what the Lord Jesus wants me to do in this situation- to fight against the man-made creeds of the WT Corporations and their puppets, the local elders who enforce these unscriptural policies.
Thanks again for all the support. It has been a veritable flood of love and prayers and this has helped give me the strength I need to prepare for this stressful meeting and I look forward to speaking with these men soon and letting them know what I have learned, and sharing the Truth About the Truth with them. I pray that Heavenly Father will bless this effort, and that Yeshua our Christ will give me the words I need when the time comes, as he told his early followers that he would do this for them also.