I can still remember the day I was walking down the beach praying to Jehovah to not let me be fooled by anything. I asked if it were possible that Jehovah’s Witnesses were not his exclusively chosen people. If so, I wanted to know about it no matter what the cost. This was a very heart felt prayer. It wasn’t long after that a series of events unfolded in my life and the result was my being disfellowshipped. I feel I was very repentant yet the elders had their minds made up. I had been reproved before for drinking and a letter to back that up was on record. ( 1 Corinthians 13:5 HCSB) This was very alarming to me as I had some time with no problems and was trying very hard. This lack of mercy really shook my faith in the organization. I figured since I was no longer a JW it was now time to research all I could online about the organization I was raised in. Before being disfellowshipped there was absolutely no way I would visit such a web site as jwfacts.com. As a matter of fact, jwfacts.com was the very web site that helped me the most to learn “The Truth About The Truth”. (TTATT) (By the way, I am no longer disfellowshipped and have been reinstated)
At first I was very upset and hurt to learn the things I was learning. I felt so alone and abandoned and didn’t know what to do. I remember praying constantly for help. Feeling all alone, I asked Jehovah for a close friend to learn TTATT. I knew many JW’s and had many friends, I just asked that he would open the eyes of a close friend so I wouldn’t be so alone. I actually sent links to jwfacts.com and pdf’s of Crisis of Conscience by Ray Franz to a few of my closest friends, begging them to read it. Daring them in fact with words such as, “don’t read this unless you want your life to change”. I had thought they all ignored me but I continued my prayers. A few months go by and one brother called me up and said he wanted to meet me for lunch. I was in shock and couldn’t wait to meet him, but was unsure exactly why as he wouldn’t tell me on the phone. We met and sure enough he had read the file I sent him. He said he was learning things he never knew and was still investigating it all. He was still a very active JW but knew something was very wrong with the organization. This brother was an elder that I had depended on myself for years and a very close friend. It also happened to be this elder who had written the letter on me that was in the file as he told me later! Was my prayer answered by Jehovah? Nothing could convince me otherwise. To be honest, I am sure all of this didn’t happen only because of the records on file however they didn’t help my situation. From what I know, these records follow you for years.
I continued to pray all of the time because I do believe in the power of prayer. Jesus Christ, the Son of God prayed for hours alone to his father. If Jesus needed to pray, how much more so do we? Of course no prayer will be answered unless it is in accord with Gods will. Is it not his will that all men come to a accurate knowledge of truth? (1 Timothy 2:4) Surely this is one of the best things we can ask God for.
I pray all the time for my family to learn TTATT. Even though they have warned me about sending them e-mail, I still do it from time to time. Maybe some “question I have” that will make them think in a non threatening way. Sometimes I have been very direct. I just feel if I am going to pray for this then I need to plant seeds of truth along with my prayers. Seeds are very tiny and can grow very huge. We need to plant them every where and then let God make them grow. (1 Corinthians 3:6) However, if we don’t plant them, what does God have to work with? I know he can accomplish his will one way or the other but I plan to help things move along in whatever way I can. The heart is the soil and if I can place a seed there, I am going to do it. For ideas on how to plant seeds with friends see this article: How to Test the Waters with a JW Friend.
The first question that most JW’s will ask is “Where do we go?” They have been trained to ask this question because in their minds the organization has replace Jesus Christ. The truth is we go to Jesus Christ himself as he taught us. He said, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me”. (John 14:6) He also said, “Neither be called ‘leaders,’ for YOUR Leader is one, the Christ.” ( Matthew 23:10) They also ask where do we gather together? Jesus was clear on this, he said “For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them.” (Matthew 18:20) Maybe you too might be asking these questions. Pray for others to come to Christ and stop becoming slaves of men. (1 Corinthians 6:20) Be specific in your prayers and do not stop planting seeds of truth. (John 14:6) Pray to find other persons that you can gather together with and as Christ himself promised us, he will be there with you.
Your brother in Christ,